Yogyakarta in My Mind Eps 9

All is in My Hand

By Debby Zunta

Part 3 Struggle with myself to achieve..

I was tired because I prepared everthing by myself. I thought my body a little bit stressed on the first day in Yogya. I felt dizzy and had a bout of diarhea. It was hard. But fortunaly, I recovered fast after I met my friends. They were all  kind to me and made me forget about all of my pain. They were smart but very humble. They had not only taught  me   about the lessons but also bonded with me about friendship. I didn’t meet any person like them in STERO.

I found a new face of Yogyakarta. I found a new place, new friends, new boardinghouse, a new landlady who was so kind to me. It was like I started everything from zero. I changed my habits, my diet, sleep routine, exercise regime, my fashion wear, study hours and chill time. I cared about myself and I loved myself. I developed positive thinking by reading books, a pastime which was lost in high school.  I became a bookworm. And it really helped me.

I ate three regular meals a day and also had fruits, milk and drank lots of plain water. I slept well and had more than enough. I went for exercise in the morning or evening. All I needed was to stay healthy, so I could use my brain optimally.

I bought some make up cosmetic. Before this, I never cared about it. I also bought some clothes to update my fashion sense. What is the function?  Of courese to make me more confident.

How to manage about study and chill time? Of course it was about how I overcame my laziness. My big addition was Internet browsing. It could be beneficial for me but the most troubling effect wass I lost my focus. I quit instagram, didn’t open youtube or facebook. I only used some apps for chatting like whatsapp and line. It actually depended on the individual. As for me, I was typically glued to my laptop once I   opened Youtube, which was cocain to me. Instagram and facebook were also  poisons. There nothing worthwhile that people shared  in IG or FB. They were fake and  not healthy for my brain.   I was avoiding them all.

Everyone had different strategies to study. For me, I could study anywhere and anytime. But the most effective moments for my brain were in the morning and in the evening;  not night. I was a sleeping beauty.  I needed to sleep more than 5 hours. I think it was a habit that I brought along from home, 8 pm was bedtime. My biological clock was really hard for me to fight with. But I always wake early at 2am or 3am. I could not be a night owl.

When I was in STERO, I spent so much time for unrewarding activities. I had a boyfriend. We almost called every night, because we were in a long distance relationship. It was really destructive for my body and my mental faculty. I knew it was not a healthy relationship. He was over protective, it was hard for me to break up with him. I suffered from depression. On one hand I wanted to break from this vicious circle, but on other hand I needed someone to listen to all of my stories. I needed a listening ear.

If you had this type of relationship, please broke up immediately. I forced myself to break up with him in the end. I never cared about all  his threats and blocked all  his contacts. I had god on my side to get it done.

  That decision really effective. I became more focus on my goal. From that time onwards,  I really felt free. I could do anything. Felt liberated to go with anyone and everyone. I loved this liberty. I opened my heart to everyone.

In inten, I liked all the tutors. They all were young. They behaved like my friends. My class tutor was Mr. Ton. He already had family, but still very handsome. I often attended additional class with him. It was because I was late coming to Inten. Some of my friends had spend the gap year to join this course, but I only have three months to prepare. I had to use light speed for cacth up.

Mr. Ton was really sincere. He told me everything about SBMPTN. He told me that he ever became a broker for SBMPTN. Yes, it happened in Indonesia. It was very orgainsed syndicate crime. It opened my eyes about reality. I was sad because now I had lost his contact.

I also liked my math tutor, Mr. Yanu. He was not handsome but cute. He always cared about my math score. I ever scored zero point for math because I didn’t do it. He was commented harshly. From that moment I always tried to complete the math in the paper. Ahh one more thing that I wondered. He was already about 30 years old  but still remained unmarried. Another strange thing, he was a bus lover. How can people love buses?. His phone wallpaper was really a bus. Did he love women? He often shared his point of view when I took private additional class. we were like friends but I always respected him.

The most often attended additional class was with my chemistry tutor, Mr Dod. I thought he was a little bit crazy, but funny. He often teased me in the class, he teased other girls too. However, he was really concientious in his teaching. He was also really smart, could answer all the students quetions. I liked it.

In hindsight, all I could say, environment and especially the people around really influenced me greatly. But, they won’t work if I did not accept them with all my heart.

The three months gave me the happiest moment of my life in Jogja. I almost thought that I never had a good moment, but it all changed

After the SBMPTN test, I did not go back to Cilacap. I stayed back until the release of the results. It was almost a month of waiting. I used that time for preparing the mandiri test. It was another option if I failed SBMPTN. Almost all the universities opened this way. I enrolled for UGM and Unair. Even they were more expensive but I had to try.

Finally the day come, the announcement was made at about 2 pm on Juni 13, 2017. It was a day after my birthday. I didn’t have  courage to access it on my laptop.  I went to Inten to find out from my tutors. The tutors were there in the front of their computers. They had opened some students result.

“I want to open the announcement, here please.” Me.

“ Yes, sure Deb.” Miss Li.

“ Calm down, the student who always take additional class with me must have gotten a  place.” Mr. Dod   teased me.

“Have you open mine?” I asked and wondered.

“ Not yet.” Mr Dod

“ Really? I really worry sir” I still wondered.

“Yes.”

Miss Li write my SBMPTN number and my date of birth. And I was happy. It was not written in, it was blue. Congratulation! It was my best birthday gift. I was accepted in Faculty of dentistry, University of Jember. That would be another Journey for me. Here I captured the announcement. So beautiful.